Another Beautiful Hazy Day in Auckland

Today is an overcast but beautiful day in Auckland. Its perfect for a bike ride and a swim but then in my world every day is perfect for those.

Have you ever had one of those days where you are really happy but you want to weep at the same time?

We live in extraordinary times and often the extremes of beauty, sadness, joy and delight get brushed aside because we are too busy to notice. I’m troubled by what is happening in Syria, West Africa and much closer to home. For every fragment of good news there it seems like there is an inexplicable amount of pain.

It is a truism that we grow the most in hard times and that is the paradox there is often nothing worthwhile that doesn’t come with risks and often more.

I love fast, busy and smart but lately I have been working on slowing my self down and enjoying all of the small things that make up the big things.

My daughter turns 11 this week ( b July 2001). Being her father is the most magical thing I’ve ever done and there is something about seeing the world through fresh eyes that takes my breath away. She is a wonderful artist and musician already and everyday I do my best to make her world a better place.

I know I can’t protect her from the future but that doesn’t stop me wanting to.

She has a first cousin who was born on Sept 11th 2001. I remember being at work at a big management consulting firm on that day and just being in shock all day. As another friend says – ” and yet a new day also rises”.

Hearing bad news and feeling it are two very different things. For the most part we avoid feeling and we should embrace and celebrate life in all its faces.

There is a funny little twitter ritual called #thatisall. I reckon Oscar Wilde was the first tweeter.

“To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all.”
– Oscar Wilde

The movie Bladerunner is now 30 years old and it is one of my favourites. I suspect most people identify with Deckard, but me – I’m Roy. Especially when he is talking with Tyrell during the chess game or right at the end. Here is that speech.

Roy: I’ve seen things you people wouldn’t believe. Attack ships on fire off the shoulder of Orion. I’ve watched C-beams glitter in the dark near the Tannhauser Gate. All those moments will be lost in time, like tears in rain. Time to die.”

That is great but the coda reply is even better.

“I dunno why he saved my life.
Maybe in those last moments he loved life than he he ever had before.
Not just his life.
Anybody’s life.
My life.

All it wanted were the same answers the rest of us wanted.
Where do I come from ?
Where am I going?
How long have I got?”

So today that is what I am thinking about. How happy I am to have such a wonderful daughter but at the same time what can I do to best prepare her for the future.

Sean James Donnelly wrote the perfect song about that. Beautiful Haze is one of those magic moment songs that has the power to make to weep and laugh at the same time.

You should go buy a copy of the song and / or the SJD albums. I also love the fact that Beautiful Haze was used to advertise a beer brand. That is the perfect subversive moment ever.

Happy birthday daughter.